RANDOM THOUGHTS

What do you do when your world, which was perfect a while ago comes down crashing like a pack of cards? You start getting a feeling,' This is the end of me. I can't go any further. I have given up.' You get up from sleep with a start, when you see a dark tunnel with no light at the end of it. Life is so fickle. It tricks you, when you have least expected it.

• Why are people selfish?
• Why should you not expect the other person to be a little responsible, when you are yourself responsible?
• Why can't things go as planned?
• Why do things go wrong, just when you thought they were set right?
  
• Why can't a dependent voice his/her views?
• Why is one seen in bad light if he/she puts his/her foot down for the right reasons?
  
• Why is every stage of your life governed by dirty politics?
• Why do people small talk and sweet talk?
• Why is it false to be true?
• Why does reasoning differ from person to person?
• Why is truth so subjective?
  
• Why doesn't a perfect code of right and wrong exists?
• Why one has to die to attain peace for eternity?
• Why is trust so fickle?

The week begins and I start waiting for Fridays. On Friday evenings there is this blissful feeling of happiness and relief. Similarly on Sunday evenings I experience a strange kind of sadness. Monday mornings are horrible and cranky. Tuesdays are just plain and fine. On Wednesdays the excitement starts piling up as 2 wickets are already down and there are just 2 more to go. Thursdays go in anticipation of Fridays. And when Fridays come, the formals are dumped into the closet and a comfortable tee and a pair of jeans sneak out, already bringing on the weekend. Saturdays are spent in sleeping, browsing the net, watching TV, etc. Sundays creep in with the dreary feeling of Mondays and the wait for the next Friday begins all over again. Week after week the same cycle! I bet its the same everywhere. Life has become a routine, but it is not really monotonous. Everyday brings in new challenges along with a new a ray of hope, suggesting life is going to be better going forward. Life has changed and it is for the good. And Fridays are always 'GOOD'.

A new music phone and I spend the entire weekend loading songs it. Some new ones and some old ones. Wow! I love the romantic songs by rafi and kishore

I became a graduate this week and that too with respectable marks. Some people were surprised, some were expecting me to do well. I feel nothing about things coming to an end. May be because my attention has been diverted by something else or may be I have been hyper-ventilating about results so much that now, when they have come, I feel nothing. Not that I am a stone, but we have to grow up. We have to leave things behind to make space for new ones. Nevertheless, I ll still do my post-grads from Podar. I don't know how much college I am going to attend for that. Lol! I talk as if I have attended college regularly in the last 5 years. The kiddy phase of my life has come to an end. There are lot of new things that have come into existence in the past few days. Some I need to change and those I cannot change I need to accept them the way they are. As some say, 'When you can't fight things, just accept them. Things will be easier.' And this statement is always proven right, no matter what the circumstances are.

When we all apply for jobs, we think we will just have to execute whatever we have learnt so far. If that is what you think, then you are making a big big mistake. Trust me you have to be open to many new things. You will be inundated with lot of new things. Your ability to grasp and retain will be at test. You should be ready to learn, unlearn and then relearn. When you were in college, you could just bunk the following day if you have had a heavy day. But here you just can't. You look forward for the weekend. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday go in thinking about the last weekend and Thursday, Friday go in planning the next.(ofcourse all I did this weekend was sleep) I was told by a senior that your first month in any organisation is your honeymooning period. You learn new things, come to know new people, etc. But what if your honeymoon makes you battle with a bad stomach? Your entire constitution goes for a toss? You don't want it, right? But that is not the case here. You learn to endure, face and fight all the obstacles. Having said that, I have also heard people go an extra mile forward to make you feel comfortable. People take care of your needs. Well, I think I should agree here, I have easily lost 2-3 kilos. They have taken enough care to see that I lose weight and that too without joining a gym! Now that is cost cutting!